Hi there,
If you look at the meanings of “passing solids” (using the toilet) and a “shower”, you will realize that this is an emotional restoration dream, but, with very clear indications of why this causes so much emotional turmoil in your life. It is long overdue, that is why you could not make it to the toilet. The fact that you did it in the shower stall also indicates that you need to get rid of all the emotional garbage in your life.
A toilet symbolizes the repentance and confession of a Christian to deal with inner emotional issues and emotional sins in their lives.
A person going to the toilet is cleansing himself (his inner being) of bitterness, hate, unforgiveness, and other bad and sinful emotional issues through confession and repentance. It is a sin to harbor feelings of bitterness and unforgiveness. This is the last step of the process called “the spiritual digestion process” in terms of the digestive system of the spirit man.
A person going to the toilet to pass out solids speaks of the removal of spiritual blocks and garbage through repentance and confession.
A shower symbolizes the repentance of sins that tires the spirit. It differs from bathing in the sense that we stop certain sins in our lives which cause a lot of emotional problems in our families or in our lives. These type of sins tires people and we need to stop them to bring refreshment and restoration in our lives.
You need to identify all these emotional sins in your life, you need to repent and you need to deliver yourself from it by forgiving. Emotional sins are caused by other people (you have sinned but they caused you to). That is why you need to forgive them, but, the bottom line is that it is sin. You, therefore, need to repent. You cannot allow these emotional sins to be part of your life. It causes spiritual deterioration. It tires your spirit.
The fact that you did pass solids does mean that you probably did repent already.
The handicapped person probably represents a person in your life who is spiritually handicapped who is probably the person who causes all this emotional turmoil in your life. It is probably your grandson. What you saw in the dream is how he looks in the spirit. His opening the door for you speaks of the open door for spiritual release for you. His having to go through all that effort to open the door for you speak of him struggling to release you. If he struggles to open the door for you, you need to open the door yourself. Get this behind you. Trust God. Let him take over the situation. You cannot. It is just too much for you and I do not think God wants you to deal with it.
The part where you apologized to the woman speaks of you feeling embarrassed about the whole situation, especially about your emotional sins.